Her Green Thumb

My halmuhnee was tough. 

Just barely taller than me at 5’1″ 

She’d straight up yell at you in front of the whole neighborhood if you weren’t acting right.

Other days she would just laugh so loud and sing songs

She loved being outside gardening or walking around the neighborhood, Salvation Army, Home Depot, Mr. Chris’s burger spot, and bus stops. 

She would buy flowers and succulents

Plant them all around the house

Onto the green belt

And then watch General Hospital while knitting. 

She’d make the whole neighborhood fresh cut fries

And fried dumplings. 

Then yell at me out of her bedroom window, topless, and without shame to come in the house.

I wouldn’t though, I’d keep playing until she’d come out of the house topless to drag me into he house herself. 

When she moved away, I was so heartbroken, I slept with my parents on their bedroom floor for some time. 

I would lay at night crying because I wanted her to be home,

Yet I didn’t visit her as much as I wish I could/should/would. 
I’ve been gardening and making little succulent pots and terraniums 

Thinking about how she would grow beautiful things. 

Her last few years, she wasn’t strong enough to go to church everyday, but she would walk down stairs from her apartments with her cane and go to the Home Depot dumpster to rescue any succulent they threw out, bring it home, care for it, revive it and have a balcony with wall to wall pots of every color and kind of juicy succulents. 

And I feel it too. 

Watching things grow and change right before your eyes is amazing. 

It makes you feel alive 

And you can really appreciate the simple part of basically just living when you’re growing and taking care of something. 
I suck with dates but I’m pretty sure it’s been 5 years since I saw her physical body, but she sure does take some mind to visit me in my dreams occasionally and tell some of her wisdom to me. 

Akashic Records

Akashic Records

I crawled through the earth head first to move into the light 

Bright like a crystal with a vision from the blazing fire of my mama holding out a wand telling me to make my magic happen. 

I pocketed some stones and weaved my wand through my top knot,

And brandished a sword intending to conquer the world, or so I thought. 

But I started drying up above the earth until I ate some caps that made my flesh die, yet I was transformed,

Shedding like a chrysalis into an ethereal goddess awakening to her self. 

I left the sword and grabbed three crystals and placed them all around me, one by one they began to bump and beat until the crystals turned into eyes with chubby beautiful legs and arms. 

I sat and two cups appeared, and I knew I found the rest of my self sitting across from me smiling. 

He too, holding a wand because we were both the same magician split in two. 

And he whispered to me the name of my father. 

I was complete and so the universe swallowed me up and I was birthed into a star. 

I created my own 10 card spread to read my #akashicrecords or #bookoflife from the beautiful and intuitive @starchildtarot deck. My story told from Knight of crystals, four of wands, page of swords, transformation, awakening, three of crystals, two of cups, knight of wands, the emperor, the universe. 

True story, my practical earthly mother is married to a Leo my father, I have three crystal children from my soul mate. My number is that of the magician. 

Half Monkey Half Mermaid


I took a float above myself and saw her bouncing place to place

barefoot in the trees 

Wearing skin and drenched in honey. 

Laughing and frowning all at once due to some pictures in her head. 

Then she took a deep breath and contorted herself into some awkward pose 

Until her face settled and became peaceful

The position starting to make sense the longer I stared. 

And feeling myself being drawn back to